<~Don't leave me in the dark...~>

2006-01-25T02:34:00.000-08:00

Nasasaktan ako... Masama bang isipin ang sarili? Wala rin namang ibang may pakealam sakin eh. Di mo naman ako mahal diba? Wala ka namang pakialam sakin diba. Ok lang naman sayo kung mawala ako o kahit mamatay pa eh, basta wag sila diba? Di naman ako tanga eh. May mata naman ako eh. May puso rin. Pero parang di mo alam yun eh. Nasasaktan din naman ako ah. Ano bang tingin mo? Di porki bata ako, pede mo na ako sigawan? Napakasakit... Nasasaktan ako dahil mahal kita eh. Masyado bang marami ang hinihiling ko kung maaaring mahalin mo rin sana ako. Totoo, di mo nga ako pinapalo, o binibigyan ng anumang physical injuries. Pero, sa totoo lang, mas malala pa nga yung ginagawa mo sakin eh. Alam mo ba yung "Sticks and stones can break my bones but words can never hurt me"? Tingin ko, yung taong gumawa noon, mababa ang confidence, at ginagamit lamang na panangga ang mga salitang to. Pero, alam naman natin na hindi rin naman totoo yung sinasabi nya eh. Napakamanhid naman nang taong di nasasaktan sa salita ng ibang tao... Naranasan mo na bang maging mag-isa? Alam mo ba, naranasan ko na yon. Masakit ma... Sanay na sanay na nga ako dun eh. Di ako magtataka kung mangyari pa sa akin yun uli. Lalo na't baka lumipat na ako ng school. Nung mag-isa nga ako, umaasa sana akong sasama ka sakin, at tatahanin ako. Pero hindi eh. Lalo ka pa ngang lumayo. Lalo mo pang pinakitang wala akong kwenta para sayo. Alam mo ba, kung ano-ano na ang ginawa ko, makita mo lang na nagpupursigi naman ako. Nag-flute ako, nakasama ako sa top10 ng klase, naging honors, nagsulat ng mga nobela, at gumawa ng mga poems. Pero sabihin mo nga, naging proud ka nga ba sakin? Di naman eh. Patuloy ka pa rin namang naghahanap ng mali sa ginagawa ko ah. Wala naman akong naririnig na puri ah. Palagi namang sina kuya lang naman diba? Palagi na lang, Ang galing naman ni Raphael mag-violin!, Wow! Honors ka nanaman Maria!, Naku Maria! Bagay sayo tong damit na 'to, lalo kang gumaganda!... Alam mo ba, alala ko pa nung isang beses, umuwi ako nang masaya. Kasi naman, mataas ang nakuha kong grade. Pinagsikapan ko talaga yun, kasi gusto kong makitang masaya ka para sakin. Pero hindi. Pinagalitan mo lang ako dahil marumi na ang damit ko, dahil nagmamadali na akong umuwi dahil gusto ko nang ipakita sayo yung grade ko... Paminsan nga nagtataka ako kung ano bang ginawa ko sayo. Anak ba ako ni Da sa labas o inampon lang? Paminsan napapatingin ako sa isang bagay na matulis, at di ko mapigilang mag-isip, "Wala rin naman akong kwenta para sayo diba? Bat di na lang kaya ako mamatay? Hindi rin naman kayo malulungkot kung ganun nga ang gagawin ko." Hindi ko nga alam bat mo pa ako binuhay kung mabubuhay rin naman ako ng walang pagmamahal. Sa katunayan nga eh, ang dami ko nang hindi alam ngayon...

2006-01-24T02:33:00.000-08:00

For our reading project, we need 2 write our own story. Any genre would do. We (Chelsea, Janina, and me) chose horror... We haven't finished d story plot yet, but we've almost finished it. And I swear, it's even scarier dan The Grudge! I hope we get a perfect score! 'Cuz u kno, its rele dat good.

We had a new set of rts yesterday (sori I forgot 2 tell ). It was supposed 2 b by friends... but why is TOOTBRUSH der?! She's such a pain in the ***! UNG KSPING BBAENG UN? FRIEND KO?!?!?! This is treason!!! Justice is needed 2 b taken upon!!! THIS CANNOT BE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-01-23T02:57:00.000-08:00

Come on all d people of d Philippines! 1... 2... 3... GO MANNY PACQUIAO!!! WWWWWOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! LET'S CELEBRATE UNTIL WE DROP!!!!!!!!!!!! MANNY PACMAN IS D WINNER!!!!!!!! It's really great you know, to watch people of your own country succeed at something. Maybe some of you haven't felt it yet since your country is already so big and powerful.... (*cough* US people der, excuse me *cough*) On the broadcast it said dat der was 0% crime rating while Manny's fight with Morales was going on . U know, der should be a Manny vs. Morales evryday if ds is d effect.

After d fight, "President" Arroyo called and congratulated him. And her voice was exactly like her voice in d Hello Garci tapes. BUKING KA NA GLORIA!!!

Manny's gonna come back home ds Friday. They're talking about celebrating a PacMan day, and dat means that.... *drums * DER'S NO SCHOOL!!! HOORAY!!!

2006-01-21T22:01:00.000-08:00

"Mama, r u going out l8er?"

"No. Y?"

"Nothing..."

"Dad, is der anywhere u need 2 go 2?"

"No. Y r u asking?"

"HOW COME WE HAD 2 GO 2 MASS @ 9 AM IN D MORNING?!"

It's not dat I don't like 2 go 2 mass, but... Y D HECK DOES IT HAV 2 B SO EARLY IN THE MORNING?! I was still enjoying my beauty sleep...

I'm really angry since Channel 7 switched Full Metal Panic with some sort of totoy anime. Who'll be watching dat show anyway? Maybe d little kids playing around d streets, but how about us?! And dat was my favourite show... nxt 2 GTO dat is... but stillllllllll........

jhkuuuu

2006-01-20T20:48:00.000-08:00

WOHOOO!!! The quarterly tests r finally over baby! Actually I didn't study dat much. Not dat I'm bragging but... it was really easy . I think dat I'd b getting good results.

I'm making a new layout. But I've got some problem with d music. Do you know any free audio hosting site? I can't find any... Dat's y I can't finish it ...

D 2nd screening results in PhiSci were out yesterday. Tita Nery called up Mommy in d fone and told us d website of PhiSci; http://www.pshs.edu.ph/. Mom just woke me up l8er and told me d results. Kuya passed, but I didn't. It's fine w/ me, since I didn't want 2 study der nyway. I wanted 2 study in QueSci. I don't know y, but I really like it der. Maybe bcuz it looks like SHS... Wat shocked me was dat only Cleo was d only one dat passed. It's not dat she's a flunking student, but she really isn't one of d prides of SHS. Not like Felice and Marylane, who flunked d exam. Felice is cool w/ it, but I dunno about Marylane . She's like she's lost her mind or something... 'Malayo ang tingin, Wala namang natatanaw....'

jii

2006-01-17T20:37:00.000-08:00

I only hav an hour 2 type dis, since we're hving our quarterly tests 2morrow. In fareness, I didn't sweat at all at our test earlier ds morning... Man, it was so easy! And considering dat it was Math and Science. hehe...

I brought my stuff toy along 2 school (type: Snowman, name: Snowy (couldn't think of one, so I just made it up :)), gender: I checked, but I couldn't find any unique part of d body dat matches any gender so I guess, it's a cross). Sometimes I fall asleep while w8ing 4 d nxt test (yabang!!!), but I'm not used 2 sleeping w/out Snowy. But I didn't get a chance 2 sleep since Janina kept on borrowing it...

I was really pissed off since it took such a long tym b4 we went 4 recess. It was already 10:00 dat we were dsmissed 2 d canteen. My stomach could actually b heard by my classmates!

uhhhhhhhhh

2006-01-16T02:40:00.000-08:00

hehehe... I finally understand html! I made this layout and I hope dat u like it. But I'm getting some pretty nasty comments from Chelsea. I dunno y she keeps on looking 4 mistakes. Probably jealous... Joke!

Mommy and Kuya have fever 2day... I can't watch tv since I might wake kuya up. Rats! I dunno how they got it. Kuya's like a prince. He even has a bell 2 ring in case he needs something. And me and Maria are like d manservants... O_O Mom's fever is not dat bad. I mean she can still do work and stuff. She says dat her day seems incomplete if she just lies in bed d whole day. I dunno about her, but I'm 2tally ok w/ dat.